Pressure

Due to various unforeseeable circumstances and factors outside of my control, I have been procrastinating on studying for my midterms, which will happen this week. Yes, my lack of study has been totally not my fault. Not at all. Nuh uh.

Anyway, for the midterms, especially mathematics, I foresee very difficult papers. What was I thinking to come to this university in Singapore?! I should just go back to Malaysia to sell pirated DVDs. Then I'd get to bleach my hair, wear really cool and hip clothing, and drive really sweeeeet cars. I mean, that career path has nothing going against it! Engineering is sure to be full of sweat, tears, and failing bridges. You have to wear a shirt and tie to go to work, and you have to see more numbers than alphabets; an absolutely un-noteworthy profession if I ever heard of one. I wouldn't be here, struggling against many odds (not to mention many Chinese and Indians), to get a good score in my exams. Pshaw!

At any rate, I should be studying instead of posting this, but I thought I'd take a break. I actually had quite a few interesting events in the previous week, but I'll write about those later...




That's my (very blur) view in the backseat of a small Mazda 3 sedan car, on the way back from dinner. Yes, that's 6 people in the back seat. Yes, those are 5 girls.

Had soft-shelled crab at a Thai restaurant for dinner, after a grueling day of studying and staring at papers.


Delicious and satisfying indeed.

Socks/Shoes

This week's recess week for NUS... Thus I'm actually back home in Malaysia.

I took a bus back last friday afternoon. Reached 1U really late, and I couldn't actually catch any wink of sleep in the bus. Was quite annoyed by the fact that I only managed to fall asleep when the bus was still in Singapore, but after I had to wake to get down for immigration, couldn't fall asleep again after that. Bah. The rerun of that blasted Jim Carrey movie didn't help either... I've watched it three times now. Three! I kept not wanting to watch, turning my eyes from the screen, but with the sounds and the speech, you're just compelled to continue watching even though you know what's gonna happen and you've (inadvertently) memorised all the lines.

Wouldn't have came back to good ol' Malaysia this week if it weren't for pals leaving for the UK. Couldn't resist, had to return to see everybody one last time. When I saw them all again, it's like I was never gone, merely like I was sick or had gone on a vacation of some sorts. A good thing and a bad thing to studying in a place so near yet still far, I guess. The past weekend was tons of fun, really. There's no group of friends whom I enjoy the company of more.

As of this specific time of writing, Caleb and Jun Sheng are already in Southampton, and I think Hehn should have reached London. JW and JJ will be leaving soon in the next few days. Wish them all the best in studies abroad, don't get too moody or feel too alone... Remember the good times and always have faith that the good times will come again. Caleb, will miss you pal, it's been great, don't forget the pact and the ideals we've always stood for. Oh yeah, geeks forever! Sorry I didn't dedicate or write an entire post for ya, but that would hardly be ESC would it? Hah!

And onto related matters, really sorry about lack of postage on this place, I always want to wait for the right mood for it, but it hardly ever arrives. Only pushed myself to post since JJ was complaining. What would the world do without him? *sarcasm*

I'll leave it at this for the moment. Took me an hour to write only this little, and the mood has run away to hide behind the bushes again.

Time's a'movin' too fast, boys.

Mary Poppins

brendon says:
although he hasn't asked me yet..

Throk says:
initiative, friend
being shy never got anybody no girls

brendon says:
erm
double negative
so being shy DOES get the girls...?

Throk says:
language nitpicking never got anybody no where

brendon says:
you're confusing me!
then did language picnicking got anyone anywhere?

Throk says:
evidently, its evident that you know that i know that you know that its mutual understanding that picnicking during university never got a single person no where.

brendon says:
but technically, its a technical fact that technique has gotten technical students everywhere!

Throk says:
on the other hand, handily on one hand, everybody in the world has not really not gotten no where with both hands.

brendon says:
but the flip side is that a flippant attitude, or flipping the bird, has never been good for flipping fates.

Throk says:
relatively, its relative that suggestively relative relativism has always had a relatively adverse effect on the relativity conundrum!

brendon says:
the truth is that being truthful is, in truth, not always the best way to face the truthfulness of life and true difficulties..

Throk says:
actually, in actual fact, the actuality is that actual actuation on your own part actually contributes to the overall actual act.

brendon says:
ENOUGH

Throk says:
damn u

I know it seems kinda lazy on my part to post up online chat conversations, but hey, this was too good material to waste... *chuckles*

Wordless Conversation

The couple walked down the pavement of the busy street. It wasn't strictly body-shuffling busy, but there were quite a few other people walking on that same walkway, going about their own business.

Her hand, fingers entwined, was in his, and her steps were nearly skips.

One of her favourite pastimes while walking like this, back to the car after a day of fun in the mall, was to observe people passing her by on the street. Oh, here's a bald guy in a leather jacket, he probably rides a big mean bike, but goes back home to an overbearing wife. Ah, there's a group of gaggling girls in their teens, still in their school uniforms, looking at expensive designer clothes through the shop's display window. She can't believe she used to be like them, and shakes her head. Ooh, here's a terribly handsome looking guy, busy tapping on his handphone, probably messaging several girls at once. She can't say she didn't still look, but then again... She turned to the man beside her. He smiled back, and they continued walking.

They turned a corner, and before she realised it, she crashed head-on with another woman. Ouch, did that hurt! She looked at the person she had assaulted (or was it the other way around?). The other woman had on quite a haughty look, albeit reduced slightly from the bodily collision, and she was decked out in an expensive-looking dress, with (really) high heels. She was quite amazed that the other woman managed to keep her balance after being crashed into. Ah, there's the reason. The woman's arm was linked around a guy's who was standing beside her, his attire a full formal business suit. Oh man, a rich power executive couple... she didn't particularly like their kind, because she knew that he absolutely hated people like them. Stopping her staring, she just politely exclaimed an apology to the woman she banged into. She received a curt nod in reply, and quickly she walked off. Or at least, she tried. Her hand wouldn't move. He was standing his ground and refusing to budge.

He was staring at the other guy, his eyebrows furrowed together. The man was staring back, lips curled. And then suddenly, to her utter surprise, each man exclaimed the other's name simultaneously. Laughing, they clapsed arms and then hugged each other. They separated, and started talking about things she had no idea about, the guy in the suit, telling something which was kin to a joke. Him, chuckling.

She gave the other woman an awkward glance.

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate.